Take a Deep Breath

Friday, January 28, 2011

I had started this blog back in the day with the intention of documenting my life -- the good, the bad, and the ugly. My life is far from ugly. In fact, sometimes I have to pinch myself because I feel so blessed. I have an amazing husband who loves me, an incredible family whom I miss like crazy, my faith, my health, and we have jobs that put food on the table. Oh, and we manage to fit some fun in there.

But I would be lying if I didn't say I'm feeling a little worn out. I try to put on a happy face, but sometimes I waver. Russ has been traveling a lot, and it's hard. It's hard on him, it's hard on me, and it's hard on us. We're not even halfway done with this business traveling stint, and time seems to be going slower and slower. I wish I could just run over to my sister's house to help the lonely, quiet nights pass a little quicker. But alas, I cannot, so I just try to keep myself busy. ...I've been running a lot.... I've been dreaming of crafts I want to attempt and hopefully conquer.... I've been trying to make new friends. So in the end, it will be OK. I just feel pretty lame that it's only January and I'm already needing a vacation. Here's the worst part: tax season hasn't even started yet. Dun dun dun...

I already feel a little better. Sometimes I think I just need to get some stuff off my chest. Writing is therapeutic, and I'm glad I have means to let it out time and again. I found these prints the other day, and I think they are meant for me right now. I love the optimistic message. I can't get them out of my head. Aren't they so happy, yet clean and simple at the same time? I just can't decided if I like this size, or the size a tad smaller. A girl can dream, right?

7 comments:

Sada said...

Ahhh vacation! Sounds lovely. We can take a mini one to PF Changs right now?! :)

Rachel and Jason said...

Mill Head,
Hang in there! I know what you mean about "putting on a happy face." I do it--a lot. And guess, what? I'm home alone a lot in the evenings, too (with Jase being at class). We should call each other more often. Forget the time difference! Sometimes we just need to vent! P.S. January may be the slowest, longest, dragging month in the entire world. Yup. It pretty much is. Love ya! Better days ahead :)

chad * kaity * kami * truffy said...

I totally know how you feel Camille! I remember being SO LONELY when we were living in Utah and Chad was in school all day and worked most of the night:( I missed my family like crazy. Chad hated seeing me so sad and that's why he gave in about us getting our cat (even though he's allergic and they weren't allowed in our apartment). It was on one of those particulary lonely nights that I decided I wanted to start trying for a baby LOL! Hang in there:) xo

ps. could you message me the tutorial on how to make those fabric flower headbands? I want to make Kami some! Your "crafting" is awesome.

layne said...

Writing is theraputic! And these posters are wonderful. And I think I may be abusing the replay button on the best for last Adele song. So great.

Marcella said...

I am sorry Camille. I think we all feel like that sometimes, just WORN OUT! I have been there and done that. It is the loneliest I have ever been in my whole life. I wish I had some awesome advice on how to fix it but I don't. I can tell you that it will pass though. Maybe you can try calling a Texas friend to hang out. It was better for me when I made friends. I am sorry girl. I love the honesty.

Kimberly Paul said...

I'm definitely with you Camille, writing can be pretty cathartic, especially in the doldrums of winter...or tax season! Hey speaking of cathartic, I have a mix I've been wanting to send you, so I need your address.

B said...

I wish you could come over every day. I know exactly how you feel. For reals. Crafting is a good way to pass the time. And work :). blah.